Unseen Impact of Childhood Trauma on Self-Worth

Hello Sweetheart. Today, I want to reach into a space that may feel especially tender—a space where early wounds shape the way we see ourselves and, by extension, how we experience love. This is a conversation that runs deeper than romantic relationships alone; it’s about the relationship we carry with ourselves, the worthiness we feel, and the love we believe we deserve.

When we’ve been wounded, it’s natural to question our own value. And for many, these doubts shape how we relate to others—sometimes in ways we aren’t even aware of. If you’re reading this and resonate with feelings of self-doubt, insecurity, or even a sense of unworthiness in relationships, I want to say this to you: You’re not alone.

I’ve walked this path myself, as have many others. Healing isn’t easy, and it’s not about “getting over it.” It’s about facing these deeply ingrained patterns with compassion and, slowly, building a relationship with ourselves that feels as kind and loving as the relationships we wish for.

How Trauma Shapes Our Beliefs About Love and Self-Worth

As children, we look to caregivers and trusted adults for security, love, and guidance. When that trust is broken, especially through abuse or neglect, the developing mind often turns inward for answers. This is when the painful belief that “something is wrong with me” can start to take root.

For a long time, I carried this belief myself, even if I couldn’t name it because the only words I understood is, “I don’t matter.”  This belief showed up in subtle ways: in the way I second-guessed my choices, minimized my needs, or accepted less than I deserved. These patterns felt normal to me because they were so deeply tied to that hidden, unspoken belief. If this resonates with you, know that you are not broken for feeling this way. These patterns aren’t reflections of your character or worth; they’re survival responses, ways of protecting yourself that were developed when you didn’t know there was another way.

The Subtle Signs of Unworthiness in Relationships

When unworthiness has seeped into our core, it often shows up in ways that might seem small but have big effects.

Here are some signs that residual wounding is impacting your life today:

  1. Deflecting or Downplaying Compliments:
    Have you ever felt uncomfortable when someone offers you a kind word or genuine compliment? Do you brush it off or turn it back on them, feeling that their words couldn’t possibly be true? This deflection often stems from feeling unworthy of love or attention—a feeling that, deep down, if they really knew you, they wouldn’t say such kind things.
  2. Prioritizing Others Over Yourself:
    If you’ve spent a lifetime trying to earn love, you may find it hard to voice your needs or even recognize what they are. This may mean you prioritize your partner’s needs above your own, convinced that doing so is the only way to keep them close. While this can look like love, it often comes from fear of rejection.
  3. Settling in Unfulfilling Relationships:
    Staying in relationships where we feel unseen, undervalued, or disrespected is another way unworthiness can manifest. It’s as if some part of us believes that this is all we deserve or that love will always require some level of suffering. And when you’re used to pain in love, it’s hard to imagine a different experience.

If any of these behaviors sound familiar, take a moment to breathe and recognize that they’re signs, not flaws. They’re signs of past wounds surfacing, asking for your attention and care.

A Client Story: Choosing to Believe in Your Worth

In my work, I see so many clients with stories of staying in relationships that don’t serve them because, like me, they’ve internalized this sense of unworthiness. One of my clients, a remarkable woman with a beautiful soul, struggled to leave an unhealthy relationship. Despite having another partner who treated her with kindness and respect, she chose to stay with someone who had betrayed her. She couldn’t see herself as deserving of the healthy love offered to her and believed, on some level, that pain was just part of her relationships – but is was actually one of the impacts of how she was harmed when she was a kid.

Over time, through our work together, she began to recognize how her feelings of unworthiness had influenced this choice. Today, she’s in a deeply loving, reciprocal relationship. Her journey reminds me that change is possible, even after years of painful patterns.

Self-Reflection: Exploring Your Relationship with Worthiness

I want to invite you into a gentle exploration of your own relationship with worthiness. These self-reflective exercises aren’t about judgment; they’re about bringing curiosity to areas where we often avoid looking. They might be uncomfortable, but with repetition, that will become easier.

  1. Notice How You Respond to Compliments
    The next time someone offers you a compliment, observe your response. Do you dismiss it or struggle to accept it fully? Consider saying, “Thank you,” and letting yourself feel what it’s like to receive that acknowledgment without deflection.
  2. Reflect on Boundaries in Your Relationships
    Take a moment to think about the boundaries you set in relationships. Do you feel safe to say “no” when needed, or do you fear rejection? Practicing boundary-setting, even in small ways, can be a powerful step toward reclaiming your self-worth.
  3. Examine Your Choices in Relationships
    If you find yourself in relationships that feel one-sided or unfulfilling, ask yourself what beliefs may be holding you there. Are you staying out of fear or a belief that love always requires sacrifice? Recognizing these patterns can be the first step toward choosing relationships that truly honor you.
  4. Journal Your Self-Talk
    Start to track the inner dialogue you carry about your worth. Notice if self-doubt or criticism creeps in, and gently challenge these thoughts. Remind yourself that you were born worthy, that worthiness isn’t something you earn but something you inherently possess.

A Vision for Your Future: Embracing the Love You Deserve

Click the link to listen to Episode 2 of From Trauma to True Love connected to this post, and I’ll guide you through a visualization where you imagine that you’re in a relationship where you feel cherished, valued, and fully seen. You’ll imagine speaking your mind, setting boundaries without fear, and receiving love with ease. This vision isn’t a far-off dream—it’s a reminder of what’s possible when we begin to see ourselves as worthy of real, nourishing connection.

Once you have this vision, you can let yourself feel the warmth of this love and acceptance. Each small step toward building your self-worth is a step toward creating relationships that reflect that worth. So, connect with your vision and remember that the journey isn’t about perfection; it’s about progress; it’s about allowing yourself to explore what love can feel like when it’s rooted in respect and honor.

You Are Not Alone on This Journey

You don’t have to walk this path alone. Healing happens through connection, and if you’re feeling the weight of unworthiness, I’m here to help you gently lay it down.

Reach out to me to explore these themes more deeply and how they show up in your life personally. I would love to guide you through practical steps to begin recognizing and shifting the patterns that no longer serve you.

Thank you for being here, for allowing yourself to explore these tender areas, and for choosing to believe in the possibility of change. The love you deserve is within reach, and each small act of self-compassion brings you closer. Remember, you’re worthy of love simply because you exist, and I am honored to support you on this journey.

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  • Difficult Emotions when you move on after divorce Who hasn’t gone through a breakup and felt angry, marginalized, or powerless? Divorce can often act as a catalyst for regaining lost power, but difficult and confusion emotions can complicate the process. As conscious as we want to consider ourselves, it is actually quite common to fall into the trap of trying to regain our power through manipulation and control. You need to know where you stand, in yourself, to be able to wield your anger in constructive and empowered ways. The First Step is Knowing the Difference between resentment and righteous anger! When your anger is a result of resentment, then you can be sure that you feel unsettled inside, but when your anger is the result of taking a stand, then you will experience a sense of calm – even when you might not get what you want! Here are some ways to recognize the difference: RESENTMENT Resentment is a result of not taking care of yourself, and expecting others to give you what you want even though you haven’t directly asked for it. Feelings of resentment are common in a breakup because they build over time. In the beginning, you might have an expectation that your partner will say or do something and when they don’t live up to your expectation, then you feel let down or a little angry. Burying the little feeling is like planting a seed that eventually turns into a garden of resentment. Over time, you will discover little ‘volunteer’ plants of resentment where you didn’t expect them.When you feel resentment, you will have an experience of wanting to get back at your partner (or ex), to hurt them in some way, or “make them pay” for what they’ve done (or not done). Once you’ve made it to the point of divorce, it’s much more difficult to pull the weeds of resentment, but you can do it. I’m not here to say it’s an easy task, but I guarantee you that the work you do around releasing your resentment will help you regain your power and leave you feeling the peace of mind you so desperately want to experience. RIGHTEOUS ANGER Righteous anger is different than the anger that comes from resentment, because you’re putting your stake in the ground and letting others know what your boundary is. The way to express righteous anger is to know yourself deeply and know where you stand, so you recognize when a boundary has been crossed. Regaining your power after divorce or breakup is sacred work and in the process you will discover that many of the choices you made did not serve you. In this recognition you can stop blaming your ex and start giving yourself what you need. You’re not always going to get what you want. You may have to fight for your rights, and as you stand up for yourself from an empowered, matter-of-fact knowing, then you will be able to release your resentments gradually and naturally. It’s not about “Right” and “Wrong” We tend to look at things from our own perspectives, so don’t get caught up in believing that your righteous anger is about you being right and your partner being wrong. There is no right and wrong thinking that will bring you peace. EVER! In the knowing of who you are, you can make decisions that are ‘right’ for you and you may take other people into consideration when making your choices. What you must know is the difference between the actions you take that are from resentment or righteous anger so you don’t make a bigger mess of things, because divorce and breakups are messy. Some suggestions: As you move on after divorce or breakup, it is important to own your feelings! Know yourself and the pain you’re in and take responsibility for your part of the co-creation of your current circumstances. Don’t blame anyone else for not getting what you want. Instead vision the life you want and make choices that lead you toward peace and happiness. Set and maintain clear boundaries with yourself and others, and above all else: Take care of yourself as if you were one of the top 3 most important people in your life. COMMENTS Please! (I’ll respond!) Leave your comments below, by answering one of the following inquiries: What are your top resentments are and your struggles for releasing them as you move on after divorce or breakup? Describe what you’re doing to hold on to or let go of your resentments. What stand do you need to take? How will you commit to taking really good care of yourself this week?

  • Divorce is challenging no matter when you leave your marriage. Making the decision to divorce during the holidays can be particularly challenging. It’s not uncommon to put off the decision for a better time, like at the end of a year or when the kids go off to college. Unfortunately for many, the better time turns into years of indecision, deeper despair, and increased unhappiness. It’s a given that your family will be challenged regardless of when you decide to break up, however, there are things you can do to ease the burden and move forward with confidence that you’re going to be okay. My marriage ended just before Thanksgiving nine years ago, and it was a very sad and confusing time for everyone. Through my own experience and working with hundreds of people leaving a marriage, I’ve learned some tips to help you, not only survive the holidays but believe that you will at some point be able to thrive in your new life. Statistics have shown that it takes on average 4 to 8 years to completely move on from a divorce. Anything you can do to shorten your healing process will benefit you, and everyone affected by your breakup. Whether this approaching holiday season will be your first experience post-divorce, you’re in the middle of a breakup, or if you’re several years post-divorce and still haven’t been able to get through the holidays, these 3 tips will help! Surviving the holidays: Tip #1 – Connect! The most important thing you can do to survive the holidays is to create connections. Most people tell me that they feel out of place and that they feel they don’t belong anywhere. This is a normal experience that you absolutely must not give into. Connect, no matter what. Isolating yourself will breed feelings of victimization, loneliness, and sadness. You may still have these feelings, but you won’t be alone – and it’s much harder to dig yourself into despair when you are with people. Who you spend time with during the holidays may change, and this can be sad. Don’t let it stop you. If you always attend your in-laws’ holiday gatherings and this year you are not participating, find somewhere else to share the day with. You might want to attend a singles (or single parent) meetup for the holidays. There are a lot of them, but if there isn’t one in your area, then consider going out of town for the day. Call a friend and invite yourself to dinner. Some people tell me, “Inviting myself to someone’s holiday gathering means I’m pathetic. I won’t do it!” To this I say, “Do it!” Pathetic is an interpretation you’ve made. This brings me to Tip #2… Surviving the holidays: Tip #2 – Choose your interpretations! If you’re like me, and most of the clients I’ve worked with, you have special needs during the holidays: needs for compassion and care; needs for inclusion and kindness; needs for non-judgment and most of all a need to feel hopeful about your future. Making negative interpretations is common, so don’t feel bad if you’re looking at everything that is wrong with your situation. Just don’t stop there… Make a list of what you’re making your divorce, or the experiences you’re having, mean about you. Your kids may be angry at you. You might feel guilty that you’ve caused your loved ones to feel pain. You might feel you don’t deserve to be happy or you’re unworthy of love. Look at your interpretations and determine which ones make you feel bad and which ones make you feel good. Statistically, your interpretations will probably be negative. Knowing this will give you the awareness to consciously choose how you’re going to view your circumstances. Once you have your list of interpretations, see if you can create positive interpretations about your experience. For example, you get to create a new life for yourself, you deserve to be happy, the universe is conspiring on your behalf to give you everything your heart desires. If this feels too simplistic, schedule a session with me and we can come up with some powerful interpretations that you can hang your hat on! Surviving the holidays: Tip #3 – Create something new! Divorce = a lot of letting go! Use tip #2 to create an empowering interpretation about what you’re letting go of. Choose to see this as an opportunity to breathe something new into your life. Let yourself get creative and do something out of the ordinary, or something you’ve always wanted to do but couldn’t because of the relationship you were in. Try something new! What new tradition will you start this year? You might be overcome with grief, sadness, and guilt this year, but don’t let that stop you from moving forward. If you want some support in surviving the holidays and creating something new, then join me for a special call on Wednesday, November 13th at 6 pm pacific (9 pm eastern) and we’ll share more tips for surviving the holidays. We’ll brainstorm in this interactive community call to help you with new ideas and you’ll have an opportunity to join a small online group to help you survive the holidays and celebrate your successes – together… in community with people who care, so you don’t feel alone as you move through the next couple months. Join our call: Surviving the holidays: Taking a BREAK from divorce drama

  • The first spiritual law states “everything is as it should be.” It’s not easy to embrace this law when your spouse just lied to you about your financial situation, cheated on you with your best friend, or is threatening you with divorce. Nor is it easy to embrace this law when your heart is broken and you are in the most intense pain wishing to not have the experience you’re having and for your life to be different. There’s an old Sufi story about a farmer and his son. Have you heard it? The farmer heads out to feed his animals and his prized horse is dead. As soon as the village learned of this tragedy, they came to express their condolences. The farmer heard the same message throughout the day: “What a terrible thing to have happen to you. This is the worst thing that could happen.” The farmer repeated what became a mantra to the well-wishers: “Perhaps…. perhaps…” The following week, while the farmer was working the land, his eldest son runs to tell him that he just captured a herd of wild horses. This time the villagers were excited for the farmer and came to congratulate him on his good fortune. “You are so lucky! Look at the blessing that has been bestowed upon you. An entire herd of horses! You rock!” Interestingly, the farmer’s reply was the same as before, “Perhaps…” A few days later he sent his son to tame the wild horses. In the process, the farmer’s son was thrown to the ground and his leg was broken. You know the villagers were pretty tight back then, so they all heard of the tragedy. Once again the villagers came to check on the boy and to inform the farmer of what bad luck he was having. The farmer’s reply once again was, “Perhaps… perhaps.” The farmer’s son was still bedridden several weeks later when the emperor sent his messengers to round up all the boys who could fight in a local battle. Of course, they passed the boy right on by when the messengers saw how injured he was. A few weeks later, the neighbors, who lost their sons in the battle, again come by the farmer’s home and say, “You’re so lucky to have your son home with you.” And do you know what the farmer said? You’re right, “Perhaps… perhaps.” Acceptance: It may be the last thing you want to do. Usually, when we’re in the middle of a crisis, our first thought tends to be something like this: It shouldn’t be like this. Why is this happening to me? The Law of Acceptance teaches us that our lives are always evolving whether we know it or not and invites us to remember that what may appear to be a tragedy, maybe in reality leading us to the fulfillment of our dreams. When you are living this law you will be heading toward a trusting relationship with the Divine. You will trust on an intuitive level that the changes that are taking place in your life are ultimately for your highest good – even when you are hurting. The Law of Acceptance is the first step toward healing your broken heart. As you embrace The Law of Acceptance, you will open yourself up to reinventing yourself and creating the life that you most desire. RESOURCES: exercise, book, and a video. Spiritual Divorce by Debbie Ford The Right Questions by Debbie Ford Byron Katie — Is it true? In this powerful video, Byron Katie highlights a story about a woman who doesn’t even know what she wants. After asking a few important questions, she discovers that she doesn’t even want her husband back. Can you imagine the freedom you can have from discovering what you really want?

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