Always Choosing Unavailable Partners?

Have you ever found yourself in a relationship where you felt like you were giving everything, but your partner just wouldn’t fully show up? Maybe they avoided deeper connection, their communication was hot and cold, or their actions never quite matched their words. If this resonates with you, you’re not alone.

I know this pattern well—not just because I’ve coached countless women through it, but because I’ve lived it myself. I’ve been in those relationships where I bent myself into impossible shapes, hoping to be enough for someone who couldn’t meet me halfway. I know the ache of wondering, “What’s wrong with me?” or “Why does love feel so hard?”

The truth is, attracting unavailable partners isn’t about being “broken” or needing to “fix” yourself. It’s about uncovering the hidden beliefs and patterns that have been shaping your relationships—often without you even realizing it. These patterns influence not just how we stay in relationships but also who we choose to date in the first place. Let’s dive into why this happens, how it keeps us stuck, and, most importantly, what we can do to break free and create the love we deserve.

The Pull of Unavailable Partners: Why It Feels So Familiar

One of the hardest truths to face is that we’re often drawn to unavailable partners because it feels familiar. Early experiences with love, especially if they were inconsistent or conditional, teach us that connection has to be earned.

These beliefs might sound like:

“If I give enough, they’ll love me.”
“If I’m too much or ask for too much, they’ll leave.”
“This is the best I can hope for, so I’d better make it work.”

These unconscious scripts drive us to seek out relationships where we replay these dynamics, hoping this time will be different. The problem? It keeps us stuck in a cycle of chasing after love instead of receiving it freely. And it often starts before the relationship even begins—when we choose to overlook the early signs of emotional unavailability.

The Early Signs of Emotional Unavailability

The truth is, red flags are often present from the very beginning, but we either don’t see them or we choose to ignore them. Why? Because our early experiences with love taught us to normalize these behaviors or even find them attractive – in a subversive kind of way.

Does this sound familiar?

Inconsistent Communication: They’re warm and engaging one day, distant the next, leaving you questioning what you did wrong.
Avoidance of Deeper Connection: Conversations stay surface-level. Vulnerability feels off-limits.
Breadcrumbing: Just enough attention to keep you hooked but never enough to build something real.
Ghosting or Love-Bombing: Either disappearing without explanation or overwhelming you with affection, only to pull back when things get real.

At the start of a relationship, these traits might seem minor or even excusable. Maybe you tell yourself they’re just busy, they’ve had a hard day, or they’ll open up once they feel more comfortable. But over time, these behaviors reveal deeper patterns of unavailability.

Why We Overlook the Red Flags

Recognizing these behaviors can feel like a revelation, but seeing them in hindsight often comes with frustration: Why didn’t I see it sooner? The answer lies in the patterns we developed in childhood to cope with inconsistent or conditional love.

As children, we learn to adapt to our environment. If love felt unpredictable—one moment available, the next withheld—we internalized beliefs to make sense of that experience. These beliefs might include:

“Love is something you earn by being good or giving enough.”
“If someone pulls away, I just need to try harder to win them back.”
“This is normal; this is how relationships work.”

These beliefs can blind us to red flags, making unavailable partners seem appealing. It’s not that we don’t see the signs—it’s that part of us feels drawn to them because they reflect the patterns we know. And because they feel familiar, we ignore the discomfort, telling ourselves that this time it will be different. And… if you’re comfortable with that, it could be a sign of your own vulnerability around feeling unsafe and wanting to avoid rejection. Hear me out…

Turning the Lens Inward: The Real Shift

The game-changer in my own journey—and the work I do with clients—was realizing that these patterns weren’t just about them. I had to ask myself:

Why do I keep choosing people who can’t show up for me?
What’s happening in me that feels comfort in their unavailability?

It was a painful realization, but it was also freeing. I saw how my own walls—fear of being fully seen, fear of abandonment—were keeping me stuck. I wasn’t just choosing unavailable partners; I was showing up as unavailable, too.

The good news? You can change this. When you stop settling for crumbs and start addressing the patterns within yourself, everything shifts.

Steps to Break Free and Choose Differently

Breaking free doesn’t happen overnight, but it’s absolutely possible with small, intentional steps.

Awareness Is Key
Start by noticing your patterns.

What types of people are you drawn to?
How do you respond to behaviors like breadcrumbing or ghosting?
What beliefs about yourself might be driving these choices?

This isn’t about blame—it’s about understanding. Awareness is the foundation of change.

Get Clear on Your Non-Negotiables
Before you even start dating, define what you truly want in a relationship. This clarity helps you spot red flags early and decide whether someone aligns with your values.

Ask yourself:

What does emotional availability look like to me?
What are my non-negotiable values in a partner?

When you notice a behavior that doesn’t align, pause. Don’t ignore it or make excuses. Instead, communicate directly and give them the opportunity to address it. If they can’t, you’ll have the clarity to walk away early rather than getting deeper into a relationship that isn’t right for you.

Learn to Trust Your Intuition
Your gut often picks up on red flags before your mind does. If something feels off—if their actions don’t match their words or you’re left feeling unsure—pay attention. Trusting your intuition is an act of self-worth.
Build Self-Worth Through Action
Your worth isn’t something you “find”—it’s something you build. Each time you set a boundary, speak up, or walk away from something that doesn’t serve you, you strengthen your sense of self-worth.
Honor Your Inner Child, Lead with Your Adult Self
Recognize that the strategies you’ve used in the past—over-giving, staying silent—were brilliant tools to protect you as a child. But now, as an adult, you have the power to choose differently.

Embracing the Love You Deserve

The love you’re longing for isn’t out of reach—it’s closer than you think. But it starts with you. By showing up authentically, setting boundaries, and believing in your worth, you create the space for real, fulfilling love to enter your life.

When you begin to choose differently—recognizing red flags early, setting boundaries, and trusting your gut—you start to attract partners who are ready to meet you where you are. And the ones who aren’t? You’ll have the confidence to walk away, knowing you’re not losing love but making room for something better.

Let’s Take This Journey Together

If you’re ready to explore these patterns more deeply and take the first steps toward the love you deserve, let’s connect. Visit LeilaReyes.com to learn more about my workshops, programs, and resources.

Your next chapter is waiting—and it’s filled with the kind of love that sees and honors the real you. Let’s take this journey together.

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